Get it off your chest!

Thought I was finally coming to peace with my mind, now suddenly back to drowning in my own thoughts. At least I finally got the closure I needed to see, but I can't forget how it feels to be lied to and used.

They say only time heals all wounds, but can it if you are already broken into a million pieces. It’d be like breaking a mirror and trying to put the pieces back together. You can still see yourself but that reflection will never be the same.

F*** I need therapy this year before I start to see red flowing again.

 

Kizumonogatari.
Even after the third time i read it, it never fails to amaze me.

 

shit, I am fucked...

I'm interviewing for a great job, but I just realised that on my CV, I accidentally made it seem like I've been at my current role for over a year when in fact I got promoted to that position at my current company in June... should I tell them or not

fuck, I'm going to be fucked in the ass if they retract the job offer later on...

 

[??]??? ???, ???,

 

What's the point.....?

 

I really hope this is a case of 'its gotta get worse before things get better'...

 

Looks like this is still true f2

 

"A delayed game is eventually good, but a rushed game is forever bad." - Shigeru Miyamoto

 

“You can polish a turd, but it's still a piece of shit.” -Ali Bouali

 

"Baby, baby, baby ohhhhh." -Justin Bieber


What is Royals without bugs?

 

You don’t need a lot of friends. You just need the right ones.

 

Busier during CNY period cause 3 colleagues family down with covid
They have to be quarantined for a few days

1 of my manager also down with covid

 

give me ur fucking forum likes

 

I hecking love spending on 2d anime gacha husbandos (forever alone irl ;-

 

Reunion dinner night and already losing at gambling.

 

Not sure what is worse, hearing someone chew their food, or hearing mechanical keyboards. The deeper sounding mechanical keyboards are fine, but the high pitch ones sound so cheap like they are made by Fisher Price / Playschool / Lil Tots / Leap Frog / ETC

 

This weekend was WAY too overwhelming..
I just realized I missed a friend's 2x event, blame birthday party

Spoiler

I need sleep.. Lots of it

 

I've barely posted anything in spanish on this site but I'd like to express myself in my mother tongue this time. feel free to translate.

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es curioso el cómo las emociones funcionan,
y el cómo no siempre podemos tener un control objetivo sobre ellas.
esta vez no creo que se trate de herramientas (—dígase objetivos, o maneras)
sino de corazón.

tu déficit de atención siempre ha sido un factor pernicioso entre nosotros;
tú dejas tus tarjetas, lentes y zapatos en el camino,
mientras que yo voy detrás de ti recogiéndolos y alineándolos.
tú no puedes ser mi única razón/función,
y es que yo no puedo ser tu columna vertebral.

porque creo que esta vez dejaste caer tu corazón,
por allí, entre tus palabras y autoindulgencia.
...y no creo que sea adecuado el yo recogerlo por ti.

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necesitas tiempo y espacio para encontrarte,
proyectarte, realizarte, amarte.
pero olvidaste que hay alguien a tu lado.
una relación siempre se ha tratado de dos, ¿sabes?.

llamémosle síndrome de superman:
una necesidad innata de querer cuidar o salvar a los demás.
¿será que este sentimiento es amor genuino,
o me está convirtiendo en un narcisista?

me gustaría creer que este tiempo impuesto (distancia — lejanía)
será la clave para agarrar un impulso,
encontrar un rumbo, abrazar la tierra,
prosperar juntos.

but come on... we both know it.
it's slowly withering away.

despertar desolado
porque eso es: sin sol.

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(at 05:12 minute mark > end)